About a month ago, I was noticing that Luke wasn't acting like his normal self. Then, he started to not want to eat and then started bruising really easily. I googled his symptoms and my stomach dropped, I instantly felt sick as I read webMD explaining all of my son's symptoms are signs of leukemia. So his babysitter and I decided to take him to the doctors the next day. We took him to our pediatrician and she said it was probably just anemia, so let's get full labs done and that she would get back with me in a week. I knew I couldn't wait that long and my Mommy intuition was strong that this was something more than just anemia, so we took him to a pediatric ER and our fears were confirmed. Luke was diagnosed with leukemia. We weren't sure which type at that moment, but the ER doctors said we were going to be transferred to Shand's Children's Hospital immediately. When the doctors came in and told my mom, Luke's babysitter, and I that he had leukemia, I sat there with a blank look on my face, while my mom and Luke's babysitter were hysterical and crying. No emotions came out of me. I was prepared for that news, they were not. I didn't get emotional until I remembered that my husband was totally unaware. He was coaching a basketball game 2 hours away. I couldn't believe I had to call my husband and tell him that his whole world had cancer. It was the worst phone call I have ever made. He instantly started crying and I told him someone was coming to pick him up and drive him to the hospital.
I almost felt guilty for being so calm, while everyone else was falling apart around me, but I had a unexplainable peace that God would take care of our sweet baby boy. The next couple of days in the hospital confirmed that Luke had Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL T-Cell Type). He also had a mass covering most of his chest. He started chemo the day after we got to the hospital. Luke is currently in the Induction phase of his chemo, which is 28 days long. My greatest fear was the well-known side effects of chemo. I asked everyone I knew to pray for Luke and that he would have mild side effects from his chemo. Thankfully, up to this point (day 19) he has VERY mild side-effects! Praise the Lord! Hopefully, I will have some time to keep all of my followers here updated. If you want a day by day update, please find me on Facebook and follow me (Don't friend request me, please! I don't accept people I don't know, but you may follow me), or follow me on Instagram (@lauren_modernmodesty).
God has been SO good to my family during this crazy life-altering trial. My husband and I made a list of some things we have learned in these first couple of weeks of our new-normal life:
2. We looked to God instantly and He has never felt closer to us. "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you."
3. We've never experienced the kind of "peace that passeth all understanding" until now. There truly is peace in this storm.
4. There is a lot of people who love our family and have showed us the love of God.
5. We have learned to wait on God. We don't really know what our future holds, but we know who holds the future!
6. God can use a little baby boy to soften hearts and turn people back to Him.
7. God always provides. He provides friends, family, finances, faith, & everything we need.
8. God is still in the miracle-working business.
1. Recognize your condition - know that you are a sinner.
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)
No person is good enough to go to Heaven on his own merit. No matter how good you are, you will still fall short.
2. Know that there is a penalty for your sin.
“For the wages of sin is death...” (Romans 6:23)
Just as there are wages for good, there is a punishment for wrong. The penalty for our sin is eternal death in a place called Hell.
3. Know that Christ paid the penalty.
“But God commendeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners. Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)
Christ’s love for us was shown when He died on the cross to pay our debt. He alone could do that.
4. Trust Jesus Christ as your Savior.
“...But the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23)
"That is thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:9 and 13)
Everlasting life is a gift that was purchased by the blood of Jesus and offered freely to those who call upon Him by faith.
Let me help you in a word of prayer. (Realize it’s not mere words that save you, but it is your faith in Jesus Christ.)
Dear Jesus, I know that I’m a sinner and i deserve Hell, but right now by faith, I trust You as my Savior and my only hope for Heaven. Please forgive me for my sins. Jesus, come into my heart and save my soul from Hell. I’m trusting in You and You alone to take me to Heaven when I die. Thank you for saving me. Amen!
If you accepted Jesus as your personal Savior today, please let me know, by emailing me at laurenlambert_89[at]yahoo.com or commenting below!
When in disbelief, I'd watch my whole life change
I thought I'd have the words to tell You how I feel
But the only thing my heart is telling me to say is
Lord stay close to me, as I journey through the darkness of this great unknown
Lord, stay close to me, though I've place my faith in You, I feel so all alone
My heart trembles like a child as I walk each scary mile
And the only prayer my lips can find to speak is Lord, stay close to me
I guess that I could ask You for some miracle
To even take away this trial that I face
But Lord, I know that You alone know what I need
So would You hold me tight as I journey through this place
Oh Lord, when I'm so scared, please be there, Lord
So I can rest in the promise, the promise that You care
Lord I know that I can make it through if all I have is You