Lord, Stay Close to Me

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I should have done this post 2 weeks ago, but you will understand why I haven't had time to post it when you're done reading this...

About a month ago, I was noticing that Luke wasn't acting like his normal self. Then, he started to not want to eat and then started bruising really easily. I googled his symptoms and my stomach dropped, I instantly felt sick as I read webMD explaining all of my son's symptoms are signs of leukemia. So his babysitter and I decided to take him to the doctors the next day. We took him to our pediatrician and she said it was probably just anemia, so let's get full labs done and that she would get back with me in a week. I knew I couldn't wait that long and my Mommy intuition was strong that this was something more than just anemia, so we took him to a pediatric ER and our fears were confirmed. Luke was diagnosed with leukemia. We weren't sure which type at that moment, but the ER doctors said we were going to be transferred to Shand's Children's Hospital immediately. When the doctors came in and told my mom, Luke's babysitter, and I that he had leukemia, I sat there with a blank look on my face, while my mom and Luke's babysitter were hysterical and crying. No emotions came out of me. I was prepared for that news, they were not. I didn't get emotional until I remembered that my husband was totally unaware. He was coaching a basketball game 2 hours away. I couldn't believe I had to call my husband and tell him that his whole world had cancer. It was the worst phone call I have ever made. He instantly started crying and I told him someone was coming to pick him up and drive him to the hospital.

I almost felt guilty for being so calm, while everyone else was falling apart around me, but I had a unexplainable peace that God would take care of our sweet baby boy. The next couple of days in the hospital confirmed that Luke had Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL T-Cell Type). He also had a mass covering most of his chest. He started chemo the day after we got to the hospital. Luke is currently in the Induction phase of his chemo, which is 28 days long. My greatest fear was the well-known side effects of chemo. I asked everyone I knew to pray for Luke and that he would have mild side effects from his chemo. Thankfully, up to this point (day 19) he has VERY mild side-effects! Praise the Lord! Hopefully, I will have some time to keep all of my followers here updated. If you want a day by day update, please find me on Facebook and follow me (Don't friend request me, please! I don't accept people I don't know, but you may follow me), or follow me on Instagram (@lauren_modernmodesty).

God has been SO good to my family during this crazy life-altering trial. My husband and I made a list of some things we have learned in these first couple of weeks of our new-normal life:
1. God is good. He is good with and without cancer.
2. We looked to God instantly and He has never felt closer to us. "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you."
3. We've never experienced the kind of "peace that passeth all understanding" until now. There truly is peace in this storm.
4. There is a lot of people who love our family and have showed us the love of God.
5. We have learned to wait on God. We don't really know what our future holds, but we know who holds the future!
6. God can use a little baby boy to soften hearts and turn people back to Him.
7. God always provides. He provides friends, family, finances, faith, & everything we need.
8. God is still in the miracle-working business.

I'm sure we will learn SO much more in the next months and years that we will be "fighting" this cancer, but our biggest prayer is that this is not in vain and God will be glorified as a result of all of this.

One thing I know for sure is that I don't know how someone could go through this pain and unknown without God. If you are not sure where you would go when you pass away, I BEG you to look at what the Bible says about how to get to Heaven. My son's cancer would be worth all the pain and fight, if just ONE person got saved as a result from it. Here is what the Bible says.

1. Recognize your condition - know that you are a sinner.
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)
No person is good enough to go to Heaven on his own merit. No matter how good you are, you will still fall short.

2. Know that there is a penalty for your sin.
“For the wages of sin is death...” (Romans 6:23)
Just as there are wages for good, there is a punishment for wrong. The penalty for our sin is eternal death in a place called Hell.

3. Know that Christ paid the penalty.
“But God commendeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners. Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)
Christ’s love for us was shown when He died on the cross to pay our debt. He alone could do that.

4. Trust Jesus Christ as your Savior.
“...But the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” (Romans 6:23)
"That is thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:9 and 13)

Everlasting life is a gift that was purchased by the blood of Jesus and offered freely to those who call upon Him by faith.

Let me help you in a word of prayer. (Realize it’s not mere words that save you, but it is your faith in Jesus Christ.)

Dear Jesus, I know that I’m a sinner and i deserve Hell, but right now by faith, I trust You as my Savior and my only hope for Heaven. Please forgive me for my sins. Jesus, come into my heart and save my soul from Hell. I’m trusting in You and You alone to take me to Heaven when I die. Thank you for saving me. Amen!

If you accepted Jesus as your personal Savior today, please let me know, by emailing me at laurenlambert_89[at]yahoo.com or commenting below!

I wanted to share some pictures from our hospital stay! We are currently out of the hospital, but since we live an hour and a half away from the hospital, we have to stay at the Ronald McDonald House. The house is such a blessing to us and makes our lives SO much easier.

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Our first night in the hospital. 1/22/16

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I love all the snuggling I get to do with my baby!

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My uncle got him this HUGE life size baby giraffe! It made him laugh so much!

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Our new room in the Peds Oncology Floor

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Still smiling even when he's fighting the greatest fight of his life.

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More snuggles!

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Scary port surgery was successful! Another answered prayer!

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Our first out of the hospital pic! Our new home away from home!

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A sweet lady brought her dog to show the kids at the RM House. Luke was SO happy!

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Our first outpatient chemo treatment!

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Our community has rallied behind us and has raised so much support for Luke's fight. We are humbled by the overwhelming love shown to us! We have a YouCaring account that was started by my parents that is almost at $10,000!

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My friend has also started a shop to get Luke Gear! If you are interested, you can get some here.

I will eventually get back to posting my outfits, but please be understanding at this time in my life! Please keep my baby boy in your prayers. Love all of you! ♥ I want to share a song with you that has been such an encouragement to me.

Lord, I knew a time like this would surely come my way
When in disbelief, I'd watch my whole life change
I thought I'd have the words to tell You how I feel
But the only thing my heart is telling me to say is

Lord stay close to me, as I journey through the darkness of this great unknown
Lord, stay close to me, though I've place my faith in You, I feel so all alone
My heart trembles like a child as I walk each scary mile
And the only prayer my lips can find to speak is Lord, stay close to me

I guess that I could ask You for some miracle
To even take away this trial that I face
But Lord, I know that You alone know what I need
So would You hold me tight as I journey through this place

Oh Lord, when I'm so scared, please be there, Lord
So I can rest in the promise, the promise that You care
Lord I know that I can make it through if all I have is You

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The Secret to Success

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The secret to success is to... Keep going. Keep going when you fail, keep going when you're tired, keep going when you're scared, keep going when you're sick, keep going when you don't feel like it... Just keep going!!!

This simple truth can be applied in SO many different areas of our lives, our spiritual growth, our soul-winning, our businesses, our health, our child-rearing, our day-to-day duties! Just keep going! :)

Here's some outfits from this week!

Please be patient with my hair...because I can barely stand it! I'm growing it out, and it's going to be an awkward growing out phase!
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Because it's the New Year, I have been looking for "key" jewelry to remind me of this "key" of success truth and I found this adorable key bracelet! AND it's only $8.40! SCORE!

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PS. I am doing a New Year, New You Series in my personal VIP Facebook group, all about getting a fresh new look this year! If you are stuck in a rut, check it out ----> here! I think it will you help you out greatly!

Have a great week! ♥ God Bless!
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Don't Make God First in Your Life

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If you read the title and thought WHAT? God should always be number one?! What heresy are you saying, Laurén?! Well, let me explain... I always hear people make News Years Resolutions of making God #1, but here's the thing, God already is number 1! He always will be, whether you acknowledge it or not! What our resolutions should be as Christians, is to make God the CENTER of everything we do. We don't have to compartmentalize God, and say God's number one, then my family, then my friends, etc. If we make HIM the center of every relationship, every friendship, every job, every ministry, and every hobby, then He will automatically be first!

"And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him."

My resolution this year is to center all I do around Jesus. I want to read my Bible more, so I can learn more about God. I want to pray more, so I can do greater things for God. I want to share the gospel more, so more people will get to have the gift of Jesus. I want to love people more, so they can see the love of Jesus. I want to look first class, so people know I'm a Child of the King! May this be your goal in 2016 as well!