For When I am Weak...

Hello friends!! Yes, I'm still alive! :) I'm sorry, I kind of took a 2 week break! We've been SUPER busy and thank God I have been feeling a lot better! If you missed my last post, I explained how I have been sick for the past couple of months. Two weeks ago, I cut out all gluten out of my diet and it has seemed to really transform my stomach issues. The withdrawal process was hard, but thank God, I can function much better now! Since the majority of my pain is gone, my anxiety has gotten WAY better. I have also started using essential oils, which have helped immensely as well! Just wanted to give you all an update, since many of you have messaged me asking me how I was doing! Thank you for your love & prayers!

This past Friday, I was going to lunch and my husband met me with a huge vase of flowers & a card. I opened the card and was so shocked that 30 of my Modern Modesty friends had gotten together and raised some money and sent me three $100 gift cards to my favorite stores, just because! I have never been so surprised and felt SO LOVED in my entire life! Thank you to all the ladies who participating in making me feel SO loved during this hard time!

I Struggle...

This is a very hard post for me to write, so bear with me. If you have noticed, my posts have been getting shorter and shorter with less and less pictures and posts. The reason is because I have been struggling for the past 3-4 months. I have been struggling with fear & anxiety that has interfered with every part of my life.

The past 2 months it has gotten worse and worse, to the point that I am sick all day long sometimes. I have rapidly lost weight, and lost my joyful, fun personality. When this fear & anxiety started interfering with my daily life, I knew I had to somehow figure out to get it under control.

I want to share you with you some things I have learned with God's help that has helped me during this time of struggle:
1. I've learned that I am NOT in control. Ever since I can remember, I have been a complete control-freak. I am the oldest child, which might be why, but I like to be in control of all situations. I don't like surprises, because I'm not in control. I don't like spur of the moment trips or adventures, because I am not in control. Bottom line, God has had to break me down and make me know who is REALLY in control. With many tears and fighting, I am finally starting to realize I can't control every single thing in my life. God is in control and that's a good thing, because He is good and He knows best. Just the fact that I can say that calms me! When we have fear and anxiety, it's practically us saying that we don't trust that God is good and that he is going to take care of us!